Yaar, main robot ban gayi hoon! Andar kuch feel nahi, bahar sab mast dikhta hai. Koi aur hai yahan?

Yaar, aaj subah uthi to socha chai bana loon, lekin haath pair nahi uth rahe the. Phir bhi force kiya, bacche ke liye nahi toh apne liye toh karna hai. Par aisa lagta hai jaise main robot hoon—sab kaam karti hoon, smile karti hoon, ghar saaf rakhti hoon, lekin andar se kuch nahi. Koi emotion nahi.

Kal mere husband ne phone pe kaha, "Tum toh hamesha busy rehti ho, mast ho." Aur main soch rahi thi, yeh "high functioning depression" hai kya? Kyunki bahar se sab theek dikhta hai, par andar ek sunaapan hai. Neend nahi aati, par uthne ka man nahi karta.

Thoda sa treatment bhi try kar rahi hoon—subah 10 minute deep breathing, par aaj skip kar diya. Family se kya bataun? Woh log kehte hain "timepass karo, bahar jao." Par unko samajh nahi aata ki jab dimaag hi saath nahi de, toh kya timepass karein.

Kya koi aur hai yahan jiska yeh sab ho raha hai? Aur kya karte ho jab sab kaam karte hue bhi andar se kuch feel na ho? Please batao, main akeli toh nahi hoon na?