**Saans lena bhi mushkil! COPD patient ka dil todne wala guilt trip**

Beta ji, aaj subah oxygen machine ka alarm bajne laga. Bahut der lag gayi kisi ko sunne mein. Mera pota aaya, bola "Dada, aap itna kyun pareshan ho?" Lekin woh nahi samajhta ki yeh sab apne haathon ki kamayi hai.

Main 20 saal se zyada cigarette peeta tha. Ab har saans ke liye mohtaj hoon. Doctor ne kaha COPD stage 4 hai, lungs kaafi kharab ho gaye. Ab nebulizer aur inhalers hi zindagi hai. Kuch din pehle ek naya try kiya - pranayam, lekin saans phoolne lagi, chhodna pada.

Family ka burden hoon. Beta job karta hai, bahu ghar sambhalti hai, aur main hoon jo unka time aur paisa dono le raha hoon. Kal granddaughter ne kaha, "Dada, aap humare saath park nahi aa sakte?" Woh innocent hai, lekin uski baat ne dil tod diya.

Mujhe guilt hai ki maine apni zindagi waste kardi. Par kya karein ab? Pichla time wapas nahi aayega.

Mera sawaal yeh hai: Kya aap logon ko bhi aisa lagta hai? Ki aapne apne family ko emotionally aur physically burden kiya? Aur koi aisa effective exercise hai jo saans kam lekar bhi ho sake? Main kuch bhi try karne ko taiyar hoon, lekin ab der toh nahi ho gayi?