Lunch mein akela reh gaya, sabki group ban gayi – koi tips hai ya mai hi weird hoon? 😔

Okay so today was literally the worst. I was sitting in the canteen during lunch break and everyone was in their little groups laughing and talking. And I’m just there with my phone, pretending to scroll through reels but actually I was just staring at the screen. Nobody came to sit with me. Not even the one person I thought was my friend from the group project. She saw me, waved, and then went to sit with some other people. Like, I get it, but it still hurts.

I tried to calm myself down by taking deep breaths the way my therapist suggested, but honestly it just made me more aware of how alone I was. Started overthinking—maybe I’m boring, maybe I give off weird vibes, maybe I deserve this. And then the anxiety kicked in, heart racing, palms sweating. Had to literally go to the washroom and sit in a stall for 10 minutes.

Has anyone else felt this way? Like you’re in a crowd but still invisible? I don’t know how to make friends when everyone already seems to have their group fixed. My parents would just say “focus on studies, yeh sab bakwas hai.” But it’s not bakwas when it’s affecting my whole mood and attendance. Any tips that actually work?