Depression ka dark cloud kabhi chhatega? 24 saal ka hoon, biryani ka maza bhi nahi aa raha – therapy ya dawai se brain wapas happy hoga ya nahi?

Accha, so yesterday therapy session tha. Doctor ne bola "neuroplasticity" or something - ki brain pathways change ho sakte hain. But honestly? I'm sitting here, 24 years old, engineering ki padhai chhod di hai abhi temporarily, and I can't even feel the happiness of eating my favorite biryani. Kya fayda?

Parents ko pata chal gaya last month jab hospital admit hua tha. Ab ghar mein sab silent treatment de rahe hain. Papa ne kaha "log kya kahenge". Mummy ro deti hai randomly. I feel like ek burden hoon. They're paying for therapy but I can see the shame in their eyes.

I'm on antidepressants now. Sertraline 50mg. Side effects mein nausea aur insomnia hai. But kya yeh kabhi kaam karega? Will my brain ever feel happy again? Like, real happiness - not just fake smile?

Sometimes I wonder if this is permanent. Ya phir yeh dark cloud kabhi chhatega bhi. My therapist says "be patient" but patience toh khatam ho gayi.

Kisi ko experience ho toh batao - did your brain actually learn to feel joy again after depression? Ya yeh just coping mechanism hai? I need some real hope yaar.