Canteen mein akeli baithi thi, sabke group the, meri taraf kisi ne dekha bhi nahi 😔

Okay so today in college, I was literally sitting alone in the canteen during lunch break. Everyone around me was with their groups, laughing, sharing food. And I just sat there with my phone, pretending to scroll even though I wasn't seeing anything. One girl from my class looked at me twice, I think she felt bad? But she didn't come over. Not blaming her, it's just... that moment hit different.

The worst part is I have friends from school, but they're in different colleges now. And here, everyone already has their "groups" from first year. Ab second year mein aa gayi, still feels like I don't belong. I tried joining a club but the people there are so loud and confident, I just felt more out of place.

My parents would be like "padhai pe dhyaan de, doston se kya karna?" but honestly, loneliness is messing with my concentration. I can't even focus on studies when I feel like I'm invisible.

Has anyone else dealt with this? How do you even make friends when your social anxiety makes you freeze? Or do you just accept being alone for the rest of college? 🥲