Aaj subah uthi toh kisi se baat nahi karna tha – kya main akeli hoon?

aaj subah uthi toh mann kiya hi nahi kisi se baat karne ka. phone bhi side rakh diya, kyunki kya hi bolungi? "haan theek hoon" wohi jhooth bolna hai. bacche hostel mein hain, husband business trip pe, ghar mein sirf main aur mera tanhaai. kal kisi friend ne call kiya toh maine uthaya bhi nahi. pata nahi kyun aaj kal aisa lagta hai jaise baat karne se kuchh badalne wala nahi.

main sochti hoon, kya yeh bhi depression ka part hai? ya bas umar ka asar? koi remedy kiya? haan, ek baar maine apni aankhen band karke 5 minute deep breathing ki, lekin phir wahi soch aayi ki kya fayda? kaun sunega?

aap sab se puchna hai - kya kisi aur ko bhi aisa lagta hai ki baat karne ka mann nahi karta? aur agar karta bhi hai toh kya bolna hai pata nahi hota? ya main akeli hoon is feeling mein?