AA meetings ka asar ya bas time pass? Trigger handle karna mushkil ho raha hai, koi hai jo samjhe?

Yaar, aaj maine apna 8th AA meeting attend kiya. Center se nikalte waqt bola tha ki ye sab zaroori hai, lekin kabhi kabhi lagta hai ki bas log apni stories share karte hain aur hum sunte rehte jaate hain. Kya sach mein koi fark padta hai? Kal raat bohot trigger hua tha - ghar mein kisi ne beer rakh di fridge mein, jaise bhool se. Mera dimaag bhaag gaya, haath kaanpne lage. Par maine nahi pi. Family dekh rahi hai, unki aankhon mein wohi dar hai ki "phir se shuru mat kar". Itna pressure hai...

AA meetings mein sunta hoon "one day at a time" - par kya ye sab sirf placebo hai? Ya sach mein koi spiritual awakening hoti hai? Mujhe laga tha ki 3 mahine mein sab theek ho jayega, lekin triggers toh roz naye milte hain. Ghar waalon ka trust wapas laana toh aur bhi mushkil.

Kya kisi aur ko bhi aisa lagta hai ki meetings bas time pass hai ya kuch toh hai? Please batao, main akela nahi hoon na?