5 saal clean, par aaj subah office ke bahar chai-cigarette ki smell ne toda

Aaj subah uthke bahut kuch socha. Office ke bahar se guzra toh voh smell—chai aur ciggarette ka mix—suddenly 1 second mein wapas 5 saal peeche le gaya. Heart racing, palms sweating, bas ek line ka khayal. But maine deep breathing kiya, 5 minute washroom mein baith ke royi, fir nikal ke office chali gayi.

Mummy roz phone karti hai, "Beta, naukri kab milegi?" Unhe pata nahi ki mere resume par "rehab" ka label hai. Employers mujhe reject karte hain jaise main koi virus hoon. Kuch log toh directly poochte hain, "Kya tum wapas gir gaye?" Kaise samjhaun ki main har roz naya start leti hoon.

Maine ek small habit shuru kiya hai: jab bhi craving aaye, main 10 push-ups karti hoon. Funny lagta hai, but it works for 2-3 minutes. Par raat ko akeli, jab phone nahi hai, tab voh silence bohot dangerous hota hai.

Bhai/behen, aap log kya karte ho jab akelepan mein cravings aate hain? Koi trick hai jo really works? Main thak gayi hoon apne aap se ladte-ladte.