Log dekhte hain smile, andar robot hoon main - kya koi aur bhi aisa feel karta hai?

Logging in after so many days... aaj subah uthi toh ek weird feeling tha. Sab kuch normal lag raha tha - ghar saaf tha, chai bani hui thi, husband ne bhi phone karke puch liya "kaise ho". Par andar se kuch hollow hollow sa.

Maine socha, main toh theek hoon na? Ghar ka kaam karti hoon, neighbours se milti hoon, kuch nahi bigda. Par phir realize hua - main pichle 3 hafte se nahi nahaayi hoon properly. Bas face wash karke kaam kar leti hoon. Aur kisi ko pata bhi nahi hai. Sabko lagta hai sab theek hai.

Yehi hai na "high functioning depression"? Log dekhte hain smile karte hue, lekin andar se ek robot ki tarah kaam ho raha hai. Koi nahi puchta "tum sach mein theek ho?" Kyunki dikhta nahi hai.

Aaj thoda experiment kiya - deliberately 10 minute baith ke royi. Bas socha try karti hoon. Feel halka hua. Par ab phir wahi cycle - lagega ki drama kar rahi hoon.

Kisi aur ko bhi aisa lagta hai? Ki sab kuch normal dikhe par andar se tumhare saath kya ho raha hai, woh invisible ho? Kya karte ho tum log?