Cancer ne bacha diya lekin maa banne ka sapna chheen liya – koi aur aisa feel karta hai?

Mujhe aaj subah apni bhabhi ka call aaya. She was asking about my health, but then casually mentioned ki unki cousin ki beti ko baby hua hai. I was happy for them, but after call, I just sat there staring at the wall. Mera mann kuch nahi karta.

Cancer ke treatment ne mujhe bahut kuch diya hai—zindagi di hai, but ek cheez cheen li jo kabhi wapas nahi aayegi. After thyroid removal and radiation, doctors said my chances were almost zero. I was 42 then, ab 44. Synthetic hormones le rahi hoon, dosage adjust karna bhi ek alag struggle hai. But yeh infertility... yeh toh kuch aur hi hai.

Mere pati ke family mein charcha hoti hai, "Bachche kyun nahi hote?" Main kya bolun? Ki cancer ki wajah se? They don't understand. Even my husband tries to be supportive, but I see his eyes when we see kids playing in park.

Kya kisi aur ko bhi aisa laga hai ki cancer treatment ke baad aap poori tarah healthy hain, but society aapko incomplete dekhti hai? Kaise handle karte ho yeh sab? Main toh bas ro leti hoon kabhi kabhi.