Body nahi pehchana ab apna, mastectomy ke baad khud ko kaise dhundu?

Yaar, I don't even know where to start. Yesterday I was looking at old photos from before my diagnosis—just normal selfies, beach trip, me in a tank top. And I didn't even realize back then how much my body was 'mine.' Now after double mastectomy, I look in the mirror and it's like I'm wearing someone else's skin. The scars are healing fine physically, but mentally? I feel like I lost a part of my womanhood. My mom keeps saying "health first, looks later," but she doesn't get it. My friends avoid talking about it, and dating? Forget it. I tried Bumble once, but when the topic came up, the guy just ghosted.

I'm on tamoxifen now, and the hot flashes are brutal. But that's not even the worst part. The worst is feeling invisible, like my identity got chopped off with my breasts.

Has anyone here felt like they don't recognize themselves after mastectomy? How do you even start feeling like a woman again when the mirror shows a stranger? Please tell me I'm not alone in this.