3 hafte mein 5 baar haath dhona? ERP therapy ne mera dimaag hilaya! 😅

Mujhe pata hai main akeli nahi hoon yahan... but honestly, aaj bahut mushkil din tha.

Main 3 hafte pehle ek therapist ke paas gayi thi jo ERP (Exposure Response Prevention) therapy karwate hain. Bola ki "Smriti, aaj se aap apne haath sirf 5 baar dhoyenge din mein." Mera to dimaag ghoom gaya. 5 baar? Main to 30-40 baar dhoti hoon. Phir bhi try kiya. Pehle din to rona aagaya. Haath gande lag rahe the, dar lag raha tha ki koi infection ho jayega. But kiya.

Family ko bataya to papa ne kaha "tum pagal ho gayi ho, doctor ke paas kyun jaa rahi ho?" Mummy samajhti hain but unhe bhi lagta hai main "overreact" kar rahi hoon. Office mein bhi colleagues ne notice kiya ki main pehle jitna haath nahi dho rahi. Ek ne puch liya "Smriti, sab theek hai?" Bahut awkward.

Aaj 3 hafte ho gaye. Thoda better hoon, but still bahut anxiety hoti hai. Kya kisi aur ne ERP try kiya hai India mein? Kya aapke family ne support kiya ya unhe samjhana mushkil tha? Mujhe bas yeh jaanna hai ki main akeli toh nahi hoon.